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I don't usually write personal journals. I find it hard to put myself under the microscope for others, so I've been slowly writing and re-writing this for more than a week now. It just seemed like the right time to talk about a difficult subject because of the immense effect it has on my photography
Then something happens - you don't always know what - it could be a comment , somebody's actions, or just a rainy day - but everything collapses like a house of cards at this point. The plans of last week get abandoned , confidence hits zero and it all grinds to a halt. And it leaves you horribly vulnerable to so many things you could normally just shrug off.
So why talk about this now? Well its getting a bit more serious this time round - In the last 2 months I've managed to shoot once for just an hour, and i've cancelled 6 or 7 shoots over this period and have nothing new booked. There's a lot of factors colliding here and I'm dealing with them as i can though my confidence is down to virtually nothing - collateral damage I guess. But whatever, the sparkle and fun is missing at the moment.
I'm uncertain how much longer this state of affairs is going to continue, but realistically I'm on Hiatus until I can turn this frown upside down. We'll see.... In the meantime I have a LOT of images stashed up to post from the first half of the year + a few golden oldies from the archives so my usual steady trickle of deviations will be continuing for a while yet
In the meantime i'll leave you with a few from my last shoot with Amber Freya at 'The Gem'
I was diagnosed with clinical depression 25 years ago - more than half a lifetime now. Its not something that you can 'cure' or that you 'get over'. Its always there, and you just have to deal with it. Its just a question of trying to learn to control it with a mix of medication, diet and life style and whatever coping mechanisms you pick up along the way.
It is a rollercoaster ride for me sometimes though, and it does have a serious negative effect on my work at times. One week when I'm 'up' I will be full of enthusiasm, making plans, shooting, editing, uploading and all the rest - everything seems possible and the sky is the limit.Then something happens - you don't always know what - it could be a comment , somebody's actions, or just a rainy day - but everything collapses like a house of cards at this point. The plans of last week get abandoned , confidence hits zero and it all grinds to a halt. And it leaves you horribly vulnerable to so many things you could normally just shrug off.
So why talk about this now? Well its getting a bit more serious this time round - In the last 2 months I've managed to shoot once for just an hour, and i've cancelled 6 or 7 shoots over this period and have nothing new booked. There's a lot of factors colliding here and I'm dealing with them as i can though my confidence is down to virtually nothing - collateral damage I guess. But whatever, the sparkle and fun is missing at the moment.
I'm uncertain how much longer this state of affairs is going to continue, but realistically I'm on Hiatus until I can turn this frown upside down. We'll see.... In the meantime I have a LOT of images stashed up to post from the first half of the year + a few golden oldies from the archives so my usual steady trickle of deviations will be continuing for a while yet
In the meantime i'll leave you with a few from my last shoot with Amber Freya at 'The Gem'
Where da galleries gone?
So, just made my first upload since this lastest DA update - seems like the genre galleries have completely disappeared ? Or am I being a complete mong? Help please :)
300 , thank you!!
Just made my 300th sale here - if anyone reading this has purchased any prints or downloads - Thank you!! :)
Art Nude Gallery - what the f@*k is going on?
So I just browsed the Art Nude gallery for the first time in ages and to be honest I couldn't believe what i was seeing. Ignoring the issue of 'quality' (which is subjective and i dont want to get into here) i couldn't believe the amount of deviations that just shouldnt have been there - i reported about 30 images in the space of 10 mins - explicit content (oral sex, dildo insertion, erections blah blah) , then misplaced deviations , portraits, clothed 'selfies, digital art , old pictures of Marilyn Monroe .. the list goes on...
Do we still have gallery moderators on here? And if we have one for the artistic nude gallery who is it? (serio
Piper Rose - Available for Shoots
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(no adult / open leg please)
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